If you clicked on the link, you’re here to read why Ella is such a blessing in my family’s life. Below are personal health details about my life I’ve decided to share in hopes of encouraging other woman in my shoes who are hoping, praying for the best. I hope this helps♥️
Miracles come in moments. Be ready and be willing. — Wayne Dyer
Ella is hands down a blessing and a MIRACLE. I don’t regret having the life I do, in fact I love it. Given the chance I would pick this route over and over again. A lot of people don’t know, I myself didn’t even know unit I was laying on a table cut open, drugged from major abdominal surgery I JUST had when a nurse leaned over and told me to to tell my doctor at my 6 week post-op appointment that they found that I have a “heart shaped” uterus. I’m sure they explained it better than that but that’s all I could recall when being wheeled out of the operating room with a whole other whirlwhined of thoughts in my head LIKE OH MY GOD IM FINALLY HOLDING MY BABY!!! DOES SHE HAVE ALL 10 TOES? HOLY SHIT I FEEL LIKE I GOT HIT BY A TRUCK. And what about my uterus being a heart???
Fast forward to he six week post operation appointment which is a looooooooooong time to remember such a minute detail with so much other important things going on. My doctor was confused, scrolled like lightning through the surgery report and in one very, very small sentence in the middle of a huge paragraph not highlighted or noted was the finding of a Bicornuate uterus.
I am not easily able to have children. It should have been really hard or shouldn’t of happened at all. I have a condition where my uterus has two conjoined cavities, making a heart shaped instead of a traditional light bulb shape in resemblance to one large cavity. That means baby can only grow and prosper, in my case on one side. So instead of the uterus growing it’s normal size, one side has to try to keep up with accommodating for baby. Which is why Ella was breach ( upside down from birthing position) and why I needed the c section, because she ran out of room. For me to be able to conceive, keep and carry to full term is not in my favor. Only about 3 to 5% of women are born with a defect of shape or size in there uterus, I, being part of the 3 to 5%. There may be more woman who have this condition but are not even aware of it. It doesn’t per say affect fertility but in the ability to carry after conception. Having a Bicornuate Uterus can increase likelihood of birth defect, preterm birth, stillborn, infertility, possible uterine rupture and retained placenta which can lead to a hemorrhage. Reoccurring miscarriage is extremely common including in the second trimester, which is absolutely devastating. 6 out of 10 pregnancies do not last. 4 of the 10 have a preterm birth.
I remember one night laying on Tyler crying telling him I felt like my ribs are going to break. It was so painful but I shook it off as normal pregnancy pains. Little did I know. Ella had successfully attached herself to the side that would grow and had attached herself to somewhere where she had room to grow. I was lucky hands down. She’s a downright miracle I can never be more grateful for. If you have read Tyler or I baptismal story you know that we prayed for her. Every. Single. Night. Minutes before she was born the last thing I said to Tyler was “say a prayer”, hand-in-hand together we thank God for getting us this far and prayed for a healthy delivery, healthy girl. Seconds later I heard the cries of a newborn. The absolute happiest day of my life. Tyler and I do want another child in the future and we know we most likely will face miscarriage somewhere along the way, but because they know of my condition now, I will be considered high-risk and there’ll be more monitoring with future pregnancies. We may fall unlucky to conceive another, but if we do at least we have our Ella. If you have a Bicornuate Uterus, there is hope. Ella is an absolute miracle given to us at the EXACT time we needed her. I try my very best to always love the life I’m given because I know for me, being a mom may as well not of happened for me, something I longed to be so dearly. I can not even fathom a life with out her, she is everything we needed when we didn’t even know we needed it and I am so blessed to be able to be a mother. Being a young mom is for me, being a mom today and everyday is for me.